When death stares you in the eye.


Where do you turn when the spirit of death floods your mind? When you’re faced with circumstances that should terrify you, who do you call on? Over the last week I’ve been dealing with this. I took a road trip recently and as I was making my journey home, everything was going well. I had chosen a more scenic route and was traveling several back road highways.

As I was making my way through a small farm town there was a corn field on both sides of me, when out of NO WHERE a single man plane flies straight out of the corn field about two feet in front of my car, at car level. Had I been two maybe three seconds ahead of where I was that plane would have taken me out! It all happened so fast I didn’t even stop or slow down. Because it was so ridiculous I just kind of laughed it off and kept driving. About an hour later though I had stopped to get gas and called my mom and told her what had happened. It was after I hung up with her that I began to process the fact that I could have indeed died or been seriously injured. I began really thanking God for protecting me and guiding me! I truly looked at it for the miracle it really was. I continued my journey home and the rest of the trip was good and safe. I didn’t dwell on the fact that I could have died but I did continue to thank God for His protection. All was well and I got in my bed after the long journey and went to sleep.

When 6 o’clock Saturday morning I jumped and awoke in terror. This was the setting of the dream I was having,

I pulled into a restaurant parking lot, got out of my car and there was a death note taped to my back windshield… I said “what in the world is that?!” My mom said “DONT TOUCH IT! ” Then as she said it a guy dressed in all black with a mask grabs my pony tail and covers my mouth and says “you’re going to die” 

I woke up feeling paniced and imediately started talking to God, asking Him to take away all of the feelings of terror, the demonic presence I felt, and the picture that was in my mind. Because every time I closed my eyes I could still see it. I sat up and was playing Christian music and just talking to God and asking Him why these thoughts were in my mind? And when God needs to be blount with you He will be and it hurts sometimes. He said, “Well, I’ve been telling you to stay incredibly close to me and to surround yourself in my love and this stuff won’t come into your mind.” –Now this isn’t saying that I haven’t been seeking Him or spending time with Him. I have been and His name was the first thing I shouted when I woke up. But His point was that it’s not enough. The devil is fighting me hard right now. He knows God’s calling me to do great things and he doesn’t like it. God was reminding me that I have to stay 100% grounded in Him at ALL times and to not let my guard down.— 1 Peter 5:8 Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. And he’s not going to devour me. After I got my fatherly lecture He gently reminded me “But I will always be with you and protect you no matter what, so go back to sleep and finish the dream.”

So I fall back to sleep and the dream continues on….

 I punched the guy and said you can’t mess with me! Then a whole team of people dressed in black with masks came out from behind cars with guns! And then God came down from Heaven and said you won’t touch her! They all dropped their guns and bowed down to Him and took off their mask. Then I stood up on a box in the middle of the parking lot opened my Bible and started sharing the gospel!!! Soon there was a parking lot full of all kinds of people and they all accepted Jesus and started worshiping!!!!!

What started as a dream aimed for death God turned into one of the greatest dreams I’ve ever had. It was a great assurance and reminder that no matter what He’s got my back but a warning that the enemy is after me and the only way to block him is by making sure there’s not even a pin hole in my relationship with God!!

As my day went on Saturday things were going normal, went into town, took my niece out for lunch. As I was driving back home, a guy going the opposite direction decides he wants to pass all 6 cars in his lane and comes flying down my lane directly at me! There was no where I could go and the only thing I could do was slam on my breaks, sit still in my lane, and hope that he got back over into his lane before he hit me head on. Thankfully he did and I’m not a person of road rage so I again, thanked God for protecting me and didn’t even make eye contact with the guy in the other lane. I let it go and went about my ride home.

I thought to myself though, “This is crazy! First the plane, then the dream, now this. You’re not going to win devil” I got home and I began to fill my mind with things of God. I put on sermon by Joyce Meyer on spiritual warfare and it was everything I needed to hear. A few of the main points that stuck out to me and that I hope will help you too if you are or ever deal with these feelings are:

  • Jesus more than anything sought, needed, and wanted the presence of God His father.
  • God just doesn’t want to hear from you when you’re desperate and you need something. If you want to have power over the devil then you need to start hanging out with God just because He’s the best person to hang out with.
  • I will put on Christ! I will put on love! I will go out into the world and I will make a difference and God will take care of me!
  • It’s not miraculous things that are going to keep you strong in God and walking the walk. It’s knowing Him! Knowing His character and loving Him with your whole heart!

The devil is going to fight me. He’s going to fight you. But how are you going to handle it? The only way to stand up to him is to stand firm in God. Don’t let those lies into your mind, but if they do come in are you going to wallow in them and let them bring you down? Or is your relationship with God so tight that you know how to fight the enemy?

When death stares you in the eye, what will your reaction be?

One final thing God brought into my mind and has been in mind since is a song titled “Good good father.” I’ll attatch the link below along with the links to the two part sermon by Joyce Meyer.

I encourage you to take a listen to both and to make sure your relationship with God is where it needs to be. Not just that you know Him and that you talk to Him on the regular. But that you KNOW Him, that you are actively setting aside you and Him time and that not a minute goes by where you’re not hearing from Him.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VKvCpAFcjI8 -Good good father

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X0yb3zdKeZk -Joyce Meyer part 1

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5IQw0lWL-Io -Joyce Meyer part 2


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