This past week we have been incredibly busy. Last Sunday we all piled in vans and headed down to North Carolina for “The gathering”, a conference for the YWAM bases in the Southeast. It was so much fun! Paul Hawkins was speaking on the nature and character of God. He hit on so many good points that I would never be able to write down in one post! So I’m just going to share a few that really stuck out to me.
- To know God is to be intimate with Him.
- God wants my friendship more than I want His. (And I want it A LOT!)
- My potential is in my will and God’s will is my potential
I know my last few post have been mostly about my growing relationship with God. But, I just can’t get over how awesome He is! This last week has been so cool getting to know Him and His character more. We spent a lot of time getting to know each other! From doing the Peter Panda dance together and dancing in the pouring rain, to Him giving me flowers. I deeply realized just how much I rely on Him and how much He is EVERYTHING I could ever hope to have. I’m falling in love with God more and more every single day and I love it. I’ll share a couple stories! First the dancing in the rain, I was sitting outside having my quiet time and I began to tell God my problems and then I just stop and look to the sky as it starts to rain, and say “You know what.. I really don’t want to talk. I just want to sit here and watch the rain with you.” So we sat in silence and watched the rain together when He told me, “Why don’t we go play in it?” I said, “Because God! It’s WET! I’m already running out of clothes as it is.. I am living out of a suit case” He kept telling me “let’s just do it!” And I kept arguing no! When He said to me, “Look, I’m going to ask you to do a lot of things in your life, and you’re going to question how it’s going to work out. But if you can’t even do something you actually enjoy doing… How will you listen to me when I ask you to do something greater? Plus I’m God. So you can’t tell me no.” Well how do you argue with that? So off into the rain I danced and it was so much fun and we had an amazing time! I love Him! Plus it did end up working out. I had an extra shirt I forgot about. …..of course!
My second story I want to tell you is about Him giving me flowers! On Friday morning we packed up from the conference and headed to Virginia to do a mini DTS weekend with a youth group. While driving I looked out the window and saw a bunch of wildflowers. Now usually I’m not the type of girl who enjoys flowers. But I thought to myself, those are really pretty! I wish someone would pick some for me. Didn’t think anymore about it. Saturday morning I was having my quiet time when I saw a guy in my class walk by the window holding a bunch of wildflowers. I thought.. hmm. Wonder who he’s going to give those to? Then went back to talking to God. And God spoke to me, “Kayla, I know the desires of your heart and I want to give them to you.” I questioned if I realllly heard Him or if I just really wanted those flowers to be mine and came up with the thought on my own. When in the door walks the guy holding the flowers, He comes over to me looks me in the eye, hands me two flowers and says “God wants you to know that He knows the deepest desires of your heart and wants to give them to you.” I nearly fell out of my chair! God sees what my wants and desires are and He longs to give them to me!
On Sunday morning at church I was singing a song with a line, “God, you are my one desire.” And for the next 5 min. I began really proclaiming that. And laying down my rights to my hopes and my dreams, my future. When they started singing a new song that I had never heard before with pretty much the exact same words that I had just prayed out. “I lay my life down, all of my dreams. In you I find my peace.” So that’s pretty much my life right now. Surrendering these things pretty much daily to the Lord and trusting Him that it’s all going to work out for His glory. There’s never been a time where He’s ever failed me and there’s never been a time where He’s let me down. I’m keeping my hope and my focus on Him to take my life and lead me in whatever direction He’s calling.