Monthly Archives: April 2014

Touché Jesus.

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Usually in my post I write about the things I’m learning in class. But this week I really just want to share with you about my relationship with God. Because that’s been my focus! So forewarning.. it might get a little mushy ;)

It started last week when a leader in my school was talking about her relationship with God and the good times they have together. I was like well, I want cool stories like that! I asked God why we didn’t really have cool stories and he kinda gave me a slap in the face answer “Well, Kayla. The most amazing stories you have with your friends usually aren’t the ones that are scheduled.” BAM! “touche, Jesus. Touche”

So, God has really been challenging me to step up my relationship with Him this week. By spending more quality time with Him outside of the designated quiet times we already have scheduled. And it has been amazing. He’s showed me His love and His character so much more over these last few days than I’ve really ever experienced with Him. We were hanging out one day and I just couldn’t get this song out of my head “I don’t want “good” and I don’t want “good enough”. I want “can’t sleep, can’t breathe without your love”. Front porch and one more kiss, it doesn’t make sense to anybody else. Who cares if you’re all I think about, I’ve searched the world and I know now, It ain’t right if you ain’t lost your mind. Yeah, I don’t want easy, I want crazy. Are you with me baby? Let’s be crazy!”  God began telling me, “Kayla, this is what I want our relationship to be. I don’t want you to care what people think, I don’t want our relationship to just be ok.. I want you to not be able to do anything without me! Let’s be crazy together!!” It was so cool! I mean God, who created the UNIVERSE is my friend! MY FRIEND! I just can’t get over the fact that I hang out with Him.. HE TALKS TO ME! And He loves me THAT much. It’s so cool!

Another time this week I was outside talking to Him and I was getting frustrated and I just began to let it out. I began telling Him every single thing that was going on in my life that I just couldn’t handle. I stopped trying to “hide” it from Him.. I mean… He knows my every thought. But sometimes we just think we don’t have to tell Him everything. Those are liesssssss. Later on that evening I went to an Easter play and it was during that time that God really spoke to me! He showed me things during the play that really lined up with all the things I was complaining to Him about earlier. He showed me it was going to be alright and that He’s got it. I just love Him!

This play was also different for me this year, solely because I am His friend! I have this bond with Him now that I’ve never had before and it was awesome. I saw as Jesus was acting in one scene, all the little kids run up to Him and grab His hands and they just all dance in a circle and laugh and have fun! And before I would’ve just been like, well that’s cool. Wish I could do that. But this time I was like I DO THAT WITH JESUS! We have fun!! No, he isn’t physically here but I have fun with Jesus, I talk to Him! He’s really alive, He really is there.  It made me really happy! To know I serve a God that is real. A God that yes I do respect and I do go to in times of trouble, and I do listen to and obey what He tells me. But He’s also a God that created fun, He created emotions. And He enjoys when you share that part of your life with Him too. He’s not just a God who is up above ruling your every move, waiting for you to mess up and run to Him. He’s a God who wants to do life with you! And I’m finding the more I really truly get to know His character, the more clearly I can hear His voice and He can guide me in better directions. 

I think I mostly wanted to share those stories this week, because I feel that we as Christians these days tend to believe we have to be perfect for God. That we have to pray the right prayers and do the right things for Him to love us. And that is far from the truth! God doesn’t want your long big worded complicated prayers where you really have know idea what you’re saying but it sounds nice. He just wants you to be real. You also don’t have to be in a mission school to hear the voice of the Lord. I’m no different than anyone else out there. I have no special gateway to Heaven.. I’m just a girl who lives everyday makin mistakes. My relationship with Him is nothing that you can’t have! God is going after you the same way He’s pursuing me. He wants to have fun stories with you too! You just gotta let Him. So I challenge you this week, or even right now. Go make a memory with God. Spend some quality time with Him! And I’d love to hear your stories too! <3

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Roaring water!

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This week has been crazy, amazing, fun, challenging, productive, and longggggg.

Steve Sizemore came in this week and taught on the four elements of personalities. (Water,Earth,Fire,Wind)

Water- Appreciates and values calmness, steadiness, clearly-defined expectations, time for reflection, working at their own pace, sincerity, loyalty, and safety. Water dislikes insensitivity, conflict, inflexibility, lack of clarity, changing quickly, and being overlooked or taken for granted.

Earth- Appreciates and values structure, stability, long-term thinking, information, quality, integrity, and commitment. Earth dislikes disorganization, instability, quick-fix thinking, inaccuracy, demonstrations of emotion, interior work, and disloyalty.

Fire- Appreciates and values opportunities for rapid advancement, rewards in keeping with risks, a variety of challenging assignments, and causes in which they can make a difference. Fire dislikes close supervision and doing ordinary repetitive task, as well as indecisiveness, complacency, and excuses by others.

Wind- Thrives in meeting new people gaining recognition and approval, short-term goals, variety, freedom to express ideas, openness, activity, and time for fun. Wind dislikes being ignored, working alone, confining responsibilities and routines, paperwork, formality, and deceit.

As you can tell all of these personalities are very different. We all have some of each element in our personality but what you have more of, others may have less of and vice versa. We took a personalty test at the beginning of the week to see which we were! I tested to be dominantly water ,with Earth as my second highest. My fire and wind were about the same score, much lower on the scale…

My favorite part about this week was learning my strengths and how to show them better and be more confident in them as well as battle my challenges and face my fears. A main thing that Steve taught us is that even though we test as more of an element, that doesn’t define us or keep us in a box. When a challenge comes up, don’t just say oh, it’s not like me to speak up and say this, or I’m always quiet, someone else will talk. But rise above the uncomfortable things and be confident in who God made me to be! And God really showed me His character this week by encouraging me right along, even when I didn’t want to do things He was always there telling me I could! <3

Another favorite from this week was getting to learn other peoples personalities, I know everyone is different… but learning why and how to better relate to people who are opposite of me was really good. Several times throughout the week we were split up into teams with people of opposite personalities and had to do different exercises with them, by relating to them in ways that best worked for them. It was challenging at times but great in learning how to work as a team.

A few key points from the week:

  • Great leadership can come from all four elements.
  • Great results require teamwork, teamwork requires relationships, and relationships require understanding.
  • In order to grow you have to come out of your comfort zone and go into the learning zone.

Outside of “class time”, this week my team has been working hard to prepare for our local ministries that start this coming Thursday! We will be leading a small group down to Baxter! (a local government housing section of Louisville). I’m really excited! I have such a heart for the people down there and love them so much. We are hoping to start a women’s Bible study as well as love on all of the precious kids!! :)

This week… well weekend has also been busy hanging out with students from a school in Dayton, Ohio who are here at YWAM Louisville for a short term outreach (STO)! We’ve gotten to observe how an STO is run, because we will be running them this summer!! ahhhhh. So exciting!

Alright, I’m going to let you go now. That is if you made it this far! I love you all, thanks for your prayers. Please keep them coming.

 

 

Worms will eat me.

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Week one of SOMD: complete.

I arrived back in Louisville, KY last Sunday to start my SOMD (school of ministry development) and it has been an amazing crazy week back! This school is geared towards leadership and learning how to lead, and we will have tons of opportunities to walk out what we are learning. Our calender is already full! I’m excited!!

This week we have been learning about passions and discovering what we’re most passionate about from the lovely Floyd McClung.

 A few key points from this week were:

– A passion is something you would die or suffer for

-You need to live in a way that when people observe you, they know what your passions are. And that those passions reflect God’s passions.

-If I worship God for who He is, I’ll fall in love with Him for who He is.

Something God has really been revealing to me about himself this week is how valuable relationship is to Him, and how much he wants to spend time with just me!  We sang the song in worship this week that has the lines “I’m forgiven because you were forsaken. I’m accepted. You were condemned. I’m alive and well, your spirit lives within me. Because you died and rose again. Amazing love how can it be? That you my king would die for me. Amazing love, I know it’s true. It’s my joy to honor you. In all I do. I honor you.” I’ve heard this song countless times growing up but it really hit home this week. God loves me so much that just so I could be forgiven, just so I could be accepted. He went through all that pain because I mean that much to him. And although I continue to mess up, He continues to love me anyway. He is constantly giving me things I don’t deserve as well as not giving me things I do deserve. He suffered and died so that I could have a relationship with Him!!! How awesome is that? And even better He did all those same things for YOU too!  Pretty fantastic.

Something God has shown me about myself this week is that I tend to complain…. a lot. And that’s not good. He has really been challenging me to step up and make the choice to not complain when I don’t want to do something and instead do it with a good attitude. Meaning a happy heart and a happy face, not just going into a task looking happy and still being upset. But to do everything to the glory of Him.

Along with my school there is also a discipleship training school (DTS) that started this week as well. I am absolutely loving getting to know these students and build relationships with them! We’ve only known each other for a week but I feel like I’ve known them a lifetime. :)

Prayer request for this week:

  • that I stay on task and get all my work done!
  • the January DTS is headed out for India on Wed. for 6 1/2 weeks!  Keep them in your prayers.

Thanks for all of your support. I love you all!

BTW if you ever happen to want to send me love via snail mail:

Letters: Kayla Wolff P.O. Box 22185 Louisville, KY 40252

Packages: Kayla Wolff YWAM suite B 3402 Goose Creek Rd. Louisville, Ky 40241